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Dancing 10/21/04 Shall we go dancing upon my grave You and I My corpse is restless And my soul knows not of its passing Oh beautiful roteness I stumble through the automacy of life I smile...I Laugh...I move All rotefull automated lies My body has been trained to do What a beautiful puppet My corpse surely makes Yet do I? Dream...Plan...Scheme Strive to be something better than I am Contimplate God or Godess plan Wonder who I am truly destined to be Or do I reside thoughtless In me the empty shell So my corpse can play the puppet My soul can live the lie And we can dance merrily Upon my grave You and I

Damaged 11/14/04 With trembling hands I offer the shredded pieces of my heart to you I listen as your lips echo The rejection of a thousand lips before They scream your damaged Leaving me shattered Standing outside your door I see your eyes view me Like a painting that's spent the winter out in the rain All of its beauty Married by the hand of time and pain I watch as your eyes mirror The rejection of a thousand eyes before They scream your damaged Leaving me shattered outside your door With steady hands you offer your heart to me I listen as my lips echo The denial of a thousand times before They whisper I'm damaged I have nothing I can offer you Leaving you shattered Standing outside your door You see my eyes view you Like a painting hanging in a hall bright and new Your true colors unmarried All of your beauty shining through Your watch my eyes mirror The denial they've held a thousand times before They whisper I'm damaged I have nothing I can offer you Leaving you shattered As I turn away from you.

Ode To Alan 12/04/04 Thanks for teaching me... That love is just a lie may a bitter smile forever replace the wasted tears I've cried I've put my heart in a box thrown away the key Never again well I show what hides inside of me Thanks for teaching me... That I need to surround myself with a thousand walls of stone May thoughts of you forever remind me I'm better off alone I've put my heart in a box thrown away the key I coldly laugh at the shattered spirit that weeps inside of me Thanks for teaching me... That a mans value is only shallow lust may I forever ignore my heart when lying lips attempt to win my trust I've put my hear in a box thrown away the key An empty shell is what's left of me Thanks for teaching me... That no one could ever truly love the likes of me May the cold truth of life wash away all my foolish fantasies No more wasted tears well I cry Alan's taught me that love is just a lie

Father 12/21/04 Tonight I stood beneath a Harvest Moon As she lay fiery red against a ink black sky It was there between the fleeting moment The world stops to catch her breath And times mournful sigh of death That once again you were by my side Yet unlike before... Our tongues were not held with pride Our heart not cold with fear And the sweet words I love you Danced next to my ear In memory of my dad Marvin Monson

Winter's Touch 01/06/05 White gloved beauty Crystal blanket of lovely death Deny the fragile flowers breath Coldly all will lay in icy sleep Across the land winter begins to creep Robber of the trees gown of green Harshly banishing the song of spring Grey skies apron howling winds they ride In it's wake the sun becomes deaths bride Unto My Lord I heard my spirit cry Don't forsake us... With winter's touch all will die Then to my frightened heart.. An angle whispered soft and slow The flowers bloom beneath the snow

First Tear 01/23/05 How is it that a tear first came to be Was it to show our weakness Or our humanity Is it in strength we oft time our feelings manage to hide Or in strength we allow them down our cheek their gentle slide God held his first creation so tenderly Within it he saw you and me He saw how truly beautiful of heart both man and woman can be He felt emotion well deep inside As the first tear down his cheek began it's gentle slide Then gave it to us so from our hearts we could never hide I believe that's how the first tear came to be Gods precious gift of humanity

Sorrow Now Knows This Child's Face 02/04/05 I watch the angles on high as they weep for me I watch the tears of my lords eyes fall as I fall from grace Love and beauty was offered but my eyes refused to see I watch the angles on high as they weep for me Darkness stands before me am I forever to be his bride Love and beauty was offered but my eyes refused to see I beg the lord let your light within this heart still abide Darkness stands before me am I forever to be his bride My spirit looks to heaven as my feet stand before the gates of hell I beg the lord let your light within my heart abide Did you see my tears my savior when from your grace I fell My spirit looks to heaven as my feet stand at the gates of hell I watch the tears of my lord eyes fall as I fall from grace did you see my tears my savior when from your grace I fell Sorrow now knows this child's face.

Summers Moon 06/24/05 Loves fire is my flesh beneath his fingertips I catch my breath as his eyes engulf me Soft passion he lays upon my wanting lips In this moment I know how sweet love can be I catch my breath as his eyes engulf me My love and I entwine as one beneath a summers moon In this moment I know how sweet love can be Our hearts and bodies singing, "Forever seems too soon My love and I entwine as one beneath a summers moon Soft passion he lays upon my wanting lips Our hearts and bodies singing," Forever seems to soon Loves fire is my flesh beneath his fingertips

Song Of Flame 07/08/05 Embrace me I thy burning hope A vengeful pyre May fire touch thy soul Consume me I the whispered word The song of flame Unite thine heart with mine. Embrace me I thy entwine of love passions pulsing beat I am one with pleasures touch. Consume me I the honey on thy tongue The flesh around thy surge. I am Sensation engulfing mind. Mind entwine soul. Soul consuming all. I am thine true song of flame.

If And When 11/15/05 Why can't you be like the others? Try harder Don't you care Can't you see I'll be able to love you IF... You stop disappointing me Look how pretty the others are See how nice they dress Try harder Look better How can you think that mess of hair looks fine? I'll be able to love you WHEN... I'm proud that you are mine Momma I really tried to be like the others Tried so desperately I cared with everything in me and still do Sadly I never seemed to manage achieving your IF's and WHEN's And if I could only have another chance to yearn a place in your heart I would not disappoint you again Why can't you be like the others See how well the get along Try harder At least act like you care learn from your mistakes Jesus, girl start acting like a young lady should and stop being so head strong I'll be able to love you IF... You stop doing everything wrong See how I wipe the others tears away Whenever they feel harm Be more lovable Don't you care Try harder to earn a place within my loving arms I'll be able to love you WHEN... You start showing some grace and charm Momma I tried so hard to be like them Tried hard to stop acting like me Wish you could of noticed I know your smiling down at them proudly from heaven above I'm still working on achieving my IF's and WHEN's So if by chance in heaven we should meet again They'll be a place in your heart just for me your hands will softly wipe all my tears away Holding me in you arms so tenderly Then with no mention of IF's or WHEN's You speak the long wanted words I love you for the person you are today